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I'm too weird to live but much too rare to die~
19 November 2028 @ 10:39 pm
it does not matter how slowly you go, as long as you do not stop.
-confucius

if you're going through hell, keep going.
 
 
I'm too weird to live but much too rare to die~
27 February 2028 @ 10:24 pm
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I'm too weird to live but much too rare to die~
27 September 2027 @ 11:19 pm
Title: Sleeping With Ghosts
Author: Milena /milena_1980
Rating: NC-17 overall
Pairing: JaeChun (main), YooSu, YooMin, JaeHo, HoMin, HyukSu
Genre: AU, Angst, Romance
Warning: Underage sex (17, but, just to be safe); suicidal feelings; references to substance abuse; self-harm
Summary: Soul mates never die
A/N: A series of connected drabbles/ficlets. Not always in chronological order! Title and lyrics from Sleeping With Ghosts by Placebo

Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | Chapter 4 | Chapter 5 | Chapter 6 | Chapter 7 | Chapter 8 | Chapter 9 | Chapter 10 | Chapter 11 | Chapter 12 | Chapter 13 | Chapter 14 | Chapter 15 | Chapter 16 | Chapter 17 | Chapter 18 | Chapter 19 | Chapter 20 | Chapter 21 | Chapter 22 | Chapter 23 | Chapter 24 | Chapter 25 | Oneshot: Slipping Away | Chapter 26 | Oneshot: Volatile | Oneshot: Slowed Down | Oneshot: Love
 
 
I'm too weird to live but much too rare to die~
Title: Sleeping With Ghosts: Love
Author: Milena Pandora/milena_1980
Rating: PG
Pairing: JaeChun
Genre: AU
Warning: N/A
Summary: Love is stupid. Love is a myth.
A/N: This is a series of short scenes told from Jaejoong's point of view. Most of it takes place before and during Chapter 1.
A/N2: I'm posting this sort-of-fluffy thing as a gift to myself. When I posted the last oneshot, I promised myself I would have chapter 27 for February 27, my birthday. However, life keeps getting in the way and I've found only bits of inspiration here and there. I've been writing this silly piece to get me motivated. It feels unfinished, but I'm happy with it, for the most part.
A/N3: Someone left then deleted a comment in the last oneshot. I didn't get a chance to reply, but to that person: thank you very much for that comment. It made me really happy. I'm sorry for not replying sooner ♥

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Current Mood: nostalgicnostalgic
Current Music: Why I Like You - Super Junior
 
 
I'm too weird to live but much too rare to die~
Title: Sleeping With Ghosts: Slowed Down
Author: Milena Pandora/milena_1980
Rating: PG
Pairing: JaeChun
Genre: AU
Warning: Suicidal thoughts
Summary: You hate it so much you could die
A/N: This is a oneshot told from Jaejoong's point of view. It takes place around Chapter 20.
A/N2: Chapter title taken from the song Slowed Down by Visuals
A/N3: It's been two years since I last posted anything SWG-related. Yeah, I know. Writer's block was really killing me. I'm getting back into the story, so I thought I'd write one of the Jajoong POVs I've had planned for a while. Thanks to everyone still reading and supporting this story!! ♥

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Current Mood: anxiousanxious
Current Music: Slowed Down - Visuals
 
 
 
I'm too weird to live but much too rare to die~
Title: Sleeping With Ghosts: Volatile
Author: Milena Pandora/milena_1980
Rating: R
Pairing: Jaejoong/?
Genre: AU
Warning: n/a
Summary: They would hate you, probably.
A/N: This is a oneshot told from Jaejoong's point of view. It takes place around Chapter 12.
A/N: I know I've been absolutely terrible at replying to comments, especially in the other oneshot. Sorry about that :( Thank you for your comments, I really appreciate them <3

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I'm too weird to live but much too rare to die~
29 October 2014 @ 05:00 pm
Title: Sleeping With Ghosts 26/27
Author: Milena/milena_1980
Rating: NC-17 overall
Pairing: JaeChun (main), YooSu, YooMin, JaeHo, HoMin, HyukSu
Genre: AU, Angst, Romance
Warning: Underage sex (17, but, just to be safe); suicidal feelings; references to substance abuse; self-harm
Summary: Soul mates never die
A/N: A series of connected drabbles/ficlets. Not always in chronological order! Title and lyrics from Sleeping With Ghosts by Placebo
A/N 2: This chapter may be revised later on. Feel free to point out grammar mistakes.
A/N 3: So, hi, it's been 2 years since chapter 25. Hope you like.
A/N 4: Yoochun angst'ing after the end of chapter 25.


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Current Mood: blahblah
Current Music: Slowed Down by Visuals
 
 
I'm too weird to live but much too rare to die~
Title: Sleeping With Ghosts: Slipping Away
Author: Milena Pandora/milena_1980
Rating: PG
Pairing: JaeChun
Genre: AU, Angst, Romance
Warning: Reference to suicidal feelings and self-harm.
Summary: Like an empty shell.
A/N: This is a very short scene told from Jaejoong's point of view, his thoughts in Chapter 2: Running.
A/N 2: Thanks to emda for the feedback <3
A/N 3: I wrote this just after posting the latest chapter. I may write other short scenes from Jaejoong's point of view. Chapter 26 will be finished soon, hopefully. I hope that you like it.
A/N 4: Jongwoon is Yesung from Super Junior. It is his real name.

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I'm too weird to live but much too rare to die~
04 October 2012 @ 05:26 pm
Title: Sleeping With Ghosts 25/27
Author: Milena/milena_1980
Rating: NC-17 overall
Pairing: JaeChun (main), YooSu, YooMin, JaeHo, HoMin, HyukSu
Genre: AU, Angst, Romance
Warning: Underage sex (17, but, just to be safe); suicidal feelings; references to substance abuse; self-harm
Summary: Soul mates never die
A/N: A series of connected drabbles/ficlets. Not always in chronological order! Title and lyrics from Sleeping With Ghosts by Placebo
A/N 2: This chapter may be revised later on. Feel free to point out grammar mistakes.
A/N 3: A huge sorry to everyone who friended me because I got paranoid and locked this fic. Feel free to defriend; I really won't be offended if you do ^^


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Current Mood: anxiousanxious
Current Music: "Sleeping With Ghosts" - Placebo
 
 
I'm too weird to live but much too rare to die~
31 January 2011 @ 08:18 pm
Title: Sleeping With Ghosts 24/?
Author: Milena/milena_1980
Rating: NC-17 overall
Pairing: JaeChun (main), YooSu, YooMin, JaeHo, HoMin, HyukSu
Genre: AU, Angst, Romance
Warning: Underage sex (17, but, just to be safe); suicidal feelings; references to substance abuse; self-harm
Summary: Soul mates never die
A/N: A series of connected drabbles/ficlets. Not always in chronological order! Title and lyrics from Sleeping With Ghosts by Placebo
A/N 2: This chapter may be revised later on.


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Current Mood: sadsad
Current Music: "Hole in My Soul" - Aerosmith
 
 
 
I'm too weird to live but much too rare to die~
06 January 2011 @ 07:24 pm
Title: Sleeping With Ghosts 23/27
Author: Milena/milena_1980
Rating: NC-17 overall
Pairing: JaeChun (main), YooSu, YooMin, JaeHo, HoMin, HyukSu
Genre: AU, Angst, Romance
Warning: Underage sex (17, but, just to be safe); suicidal feelings; references to substance abuse; self-harm
Summary: Soul mates never die
A/N: A series of connected drabbles/ficlets. Not always in chronological order! Title and lyrics from Sleeping With Ghosts by Placebo
A/N2: This chapter may be revised later on. Posted it despite not being too happy with it, otherwise I never would lol Anyone still reading, sorry for taking so long to update.

A/N3: I'm sharing a compilation of songs I've listened to while writing this fic: SWG Playlist 1


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Current Mood: anxiousanxious
 
 
I'm too weird to live but much too rare to die~
10 July 2010 @ 01:30 am
Title: Sleeping With Ghosts 22/?
Author: Pandora/milena_1980
Rating: NC-17 overall
Pairing: JaeChun (main), YooSu, YooMin, JaeHo, HoMin, HyukSu
Genre: AU, Angst, Romance
Warning: Underage sex (17, but, just to be safe); suicidal feelings; references to substance abuse; self-harm
Summary: Soul mates never die
A/N: A series of connected drabbles/ficlets. Not always in chronological order! Title and lyrics from Sleeping With Ghosts by Placebo
A/N 2: This has been written for a few months now. It's very rough, there are probably a ton of mistakes, but I've been wanting to post for a while. I hope you enjoy.


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I'm too weird to live but much too rare to die~
27 September 2009 @ 07:45 pm
Title: Sleeping With Ghosts 21/?
Author: Pandora/milena_1980
Rating: NC-17 overall
Pairing: JaeChun (main), YooSu, YooMin, JaeHo, HoMin, HyukSu
Genre: AU, Angst, Romance
Warning: Underage sex (17, but, just to be safe); suicidal feelings; references to substance abuse; self-harm
Summary: Soul mates never die
A/N: A series of connected drabbles/ficlets. Not always in chronological order! Title and lyrics from Sleeping With Ghosts by Placebo


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Current Mood: weirdweird
 
 
I'm too weird to live but much too rare to die~
29 March 2009 @ 03:37 pm
Title: Sleeping With Ghosts 20/?
Author: Pandora/milena_1980
Rating: NC-17 overall
Pairing: JaeChun (main), YooSu, YooMin, JaeHo, HoMin, HyukSu
Genre: AU, Angst, Romance
Warning: Underage sex (17, but, just to be safe); suicidal feelings; references to substance abuse; self-harm
Summary: Soul mates never die
A/N: Another series of connected drabbles/ficlets, this time JaeChun. No specific number of words this time. Not always in chronological order! Title and lyrics from Sleeping With Ghosts by Placebo
A/N2: I apologize for any grammar mistakes, etc. Please let me know if you find anything!! Comments are love and I also appreciate concrit^^
A/N3: Will continue to post this fic in my lj until I finish it and then archived in pandora_milena


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Current Mood: sadsad
Current Music: Wonderwall - Cat Power
 
 
I'm too weird to live but much too rare to die~
30 January 2009 @ 07:24 pm
Title: Sleeping With Ghosts 19/?
Author: Pandora/milena_1980
Rating: NC-17 overall
Pairing: JaeChun (main), YooSu, YooMin, JaeHo, HoMin, HyukSu
Genre: AU, Angst, Romance
Warning: Underage sex (17, but, just to be safe); suicidal feelings; references to substance abuse; self-harm
Summary: Soul mates never die
A/N: Another series of connected drabbles/ficlets, this time JaeChun. No specific number of words this time. Not always in chronological order! Title and lyrics from Sleeping With Ghosts by Placebo
A/N2: I apologize for any grammar mistakes, etc. Please let me know if you find anything!! Comments are love and I also appreciate concrit^^
A/N3: Will continue to post this fic in my lj until I finish it and then archived in pandora_milena


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Current Mood: worriedworried
Current Music: Everything - Lifehouse
 
 
 
I'm too weird to live but much too rare to die~
08 January 2009 @ 09:44 pm
Title: Sleeping With Ghosts 18/?
Author: Pandora/milena_1980
Rating: NC-17 overall
Pairing: JaeChun (main), YooSu, YooMin, JaeHo, HoMin, HyukSu
Genre: AU, Angst, Romance
Warning: Underage sex (17, but, just to be safe); suicidal feelings; references to substance abuse; self-harm
Summary: Soul mates never die
A/N: Another series of connected drabbles/ficlets, this time JaeChun. No specific number of words this time. Not always in chronological order! Title and lyrics from Sleeping With Ghosts by Placebo
A/N2: I apologize for any grammar mistakes, etc. Please let me know if you find anything!! Comments are love and I also appreciate concrit^^
A/N3: Will continue to post this fic in my lj until I finish it and then archived in pandora_milena


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Current Mood: anxiousanxious
 
 
I'm too weird to live but much too rare to die~
02 December 2008 @ 10:42 pm
Title: Sleeping With Ghosts 17/?
Author: Pandora/milena_1980
Rating: NC-17 overall
Pairing: JaeChun (main), YooSu, YooMin, JaeHo, HoMin, HyukSu
Genre: AU, Angst, Romance
Warning: Underage sex (17, but, just to be safe); suicidal feelings; references to substance abuse; self-harm
Summary: Soul mates never die
A/N: Another series of connected drabbles/ficlets, this time JaeChun. No specific number of words this time. Not always in chronological order! Title and lyrics from Sleeping With Ghosts by Placebo
A/N2: I apologize for any grammar mistakes, etc. Please let me know if you find anything!! Comments are love and I also appreciate concrit^^
A/N3: Will continue to post this fic here until I finish it ^^


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I'm too weird to live but much too rare to die~
02 November 2008 @ 05:58 am
Title: Sleeping With Ghosts 16/?
Author: Pandora/milena_1980
Rating: NC-17 overall
Pairing: JaeChun (main), YooSu, YooMin, JaeHo, HoMin, HyukSu
Genre: AU, Angst, Romance
Warning: Underage sex (17, but, just to be safe); suicidal feelings; references to substance abuse; self-harm
Summary: Soul mates never die
A/N: Another series of connected drabbles/ficlets, this time JaeChun. No specific number of words this time. Not always in chronological order! Title and lyrics from Sleeping With Ghosts by Placebo
A/N2: I apologize for any grammar mistakes, etc. Please let me know if you find anything!! Comments are love and I also appreciate concrit^^


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Current Mood: nervousnervous
 
 
I'm too weird to live but much too rare to die~
01 October 2008 @ 10:38 am
Title: Sleeping With Ghosts 15/?
Author: Pandora/milena_1980
Rating: NC-17 overall
Pairing: JaeChun (main), YooSu, YooMin, JaeHo, HoMin, HyukSu
Genre: AU, Angst, Romance
Warning: Underage sex (17, but, just to be safe); suicidal feelings; references to substance abuse; self-harm
Summary: Soul mates never die
A/N: Another series of connected drabbles/ficlets, this time JaeChun. No specific number of words this time. Not always in chronological order! Title and lyrics from Sleeping With Ghosts by Placebo
A/N2: I apologize for any grammar mistakes, etc. Please let me know if you find anything!! Comments are love and I also appreciate concrit^^


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Current Mood: anxiousanxious
Current Music: Sleeping With Ghosts - Placebo
 
 
I'm too weird to live but much too rare to die~
15 September 2008 @ 09:09 pm
Title: Sleeping With Ghosts 14/?
Author: Pandora/milena_1980
Rating: NC-17 overall
Pairing: JaeChun (main), YooSu, YooMin, JaeHo, HoMin, HyukSu
Genre: AU, Angst, Romance
Warning: Underage sex (17, but, just to be safe); suicidal feelings; references to substance abuse; self-harm
Summary: Soul mates never die
A/N: Another series of connected drabbles/ficlets, this time JaeChun. No specific number of words this time. Not always in chronological order! Title and lyrics from Sleeping With Ghosts by Placebo
A/N2: I apologize for any grammar mistakes, etc. Please let me know if you find anything!! Comments are love and I also appreciate concrit^^


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Current Mood: tiredtired
Current Music: Uneedmemorethanineedyou - Placebo